another bad day

[Willow Deadsun Leahy]

I am having another bad day it seem for ever good day and little trump I have three bad thing and losses, my best friend seath killed him self and his mother blames me he wrote a note to me I barelly got to see it but it say sorry on it..

I started cutting again after I had stoped for almost three weaks I feel like a dumb ass it seems I have no controll I am still liveing with my demons and I can't stand them. I think I try to cut them out. I had to go to the hospitel the docter said he never saw a cutter like me he said most cutter just cut slits of skin where I cut out chunks he wanted to send me to the mentel place but we cant afored it I tould him three day would not make me stop cutting I dont want to kill myself realy I just want to stop the hurt inside I just dont want to think now I am no longer sure what to do

[Carol Kervina Gassen(clkonlyone)]

Willow, my oldest daughter has admitted to cutting herself, and we are working on it together. It does get better, the first step is before you cut call someone to talk to about your pain, you would be surprised by how much that helps. then if you still feel self destructive you need to go and be with other people...its hard to cut in front of others without having to talk about why and once you talk about it again it helps to relieve the pain...
the next step is to find a 12 step program for cutters...they are free and it provides you with a safe environment where you can tell people about your trouble and they wont judge you or tell you that you are weird or bad.
Most parents dont even realize that cutting is a sign of someone that hurts inside, i know i didnt know my daughter was doing it until i took her clothes shopping and saw it on her legs and arms...and i decided that because i love her i would do anything it took to help her stop it. please just look in the phone book for 12 step programs and see if they have one geared towrd your age group and if so call the number and see what they offer for help. there are many mental health professionals that give their time free of charge to help those that cant afford to pay for it. Please keep me posted and add me if you like.

[Jesse Cowell]

SOrry to hear that Willow. The best advise I ca give is it WILL get better. The darkest times always do if you hold on long enough.