shipping up to boston

[Becky]

well, the people who do know me, im sure they already knew this was going to happen.

I went back to MA, and in being there i made my choice that i want to move back. This has been one of the hardest decisions i have been faced with.

I'm so overwhelmed with emotions. ive been a wreck since i decided that i actually want to do this. I have to leave my parents-who are older , my sister- who is having a child this weekend(IM GOING TO BE AN AUNTIEEEEEE AHHHHHHHHHHH!), i have to leave the few but great friends ive made- most of which arent talking to me *shrug* people come and go right?, and of course the boyfriend- who has made this nothing close to easy... i'm not sure where exactly my boyfriends and my relationship would end up going, or if it would go anywhere... someone put it perfectly, if you take a toy away from a kid, even though they may not like it that much, they still want it back.

Half of me feels like im just running away from problems... but the other half of me is excited to go back home, be independent, get my old job back, AND go back to schoooool!!!!!!!not only this but i have an amazing amount of support up there that i dont have here, people to help me, to push me, to hang out with.... and this is what i need.

I take chances, i hate making choices, im spontaneous, im paranoid, im scared of failure.....

I dont know what else to write, my mood is at a constant up and down... dramatic? yes... emotional...yes....but this is who i am

drained
tired
excited

....

[WeirdZ]

so how's the AUNTIEEEEEE thing filling up to be?

[Carol Kervina Gassen(clkonlyone)]

Go Girl!!
nothing says you cant go back and visit your family and friends later...
this is your life...get on with it...do what you need to...

[Jesse Cowell]

woohoo!

[Stephi]

MA will welcome you back with open arms, just as it did me.

We'll have to try and hang out at least once when you move up this way, and before I make the coastal jump and move to Oregon