1st Diet of the year

[Becky]

For New Years i decided i wasn't going to make any stupid resolutions i knew i wasn't going to keep, and i've come to think that if im going to do anything, i'm going to do it for myself vs. "for a new year"

in saying that, I'm well aware i have gained weight. I'm well aware that im 20 pounds heavier than i was before i moved here, yet i haven't done all that much about it.

I'm going back home for a week for the last week of Feb. My cousin had a stroke, and isn't doing very well. In that, i WILL be going home. seeing people i haven't seen for 2 years, and im EMBARRASSED at the thought of how much weight i have gained. i don't know how many times we've all been on and off diets,and i only hope this one will last.

My lack of self confidence hurts my relationship IMMENSELY. I want to make this a permanent thing, and reach my goal, but i so often give up. Yes it's nice craving something and going to the store to get it...but it catches up!!! Theres no way to drop 20+ pounds by the time i go home, but i can learn from this and make myself a better person, healthier for that matter.

Oy, journaling this makes me mad, if i go back into all my journals im sure there are PLENTY of me talking about dieting, and the fact is i never stuck to any of them!!!...THAT is depressing.

ANYWAYS... for now i am trying again. Ive given up soda and am trying to cut down my caffeine intake.... i have been drinking so much water the past week my pee is clear!(i know you wanted to know that!) and on that note i've read a lot about detoxing...anyone ever done that? WELL i wanted something easy. i dont have my own place to cook, and im rarely home SO im trying the "apple detox" which is basically JUST apples for 2-4 days....regardless today is the first day and WHOA *i wont share too much info* but it is definitely is working!

Im not going to starve myself, not because i know that its bad, but because i cant! I hope to start jogging again once the weather starts getting better.

(mouth is still numb- not sure if its getting better or im getting used to it....)
(crossing my fingers that the job i have applied and tested for months ago will call me back within the next 2 weeks- i have been keeping in contact with them calling every other week or so because they have "frozen all applicants" BUT the company is going to start rehiring... lets hope im on that list!!! i need this job more than you guys know!!!)

i know this is a rant... and sometimes its just nice to vent to people you know will care- or not...either way this big open space was begging for me to rant...so i did :D! mmhmm!

[Anomalous]

There with you on the dieting thing. I've had to put an end to ChinWatch just because the weeks all started looking the same. But that's a good thing. I'm not excessively overweight like I was in New York (makes me cringe whenever I see the pictures of myself).

[Carol Kervina Gassen(clkonlyone)]

You have a good start on the diet with the detox...having been there and done that. an apple detox is good...
i have a few others that work well, but an all natural detox works the best.
if you are interested in a diet that i found is easy to stick to, and really works whether you cook or not email me at [e-mail]
I can outline it quickly for you and email it back...i am pregnant right now and the Dr. told me i had to keep my weight gain low and this has been working for me as well as keeping me healthy through my pregnancy and my Dr. told me that I can use it after to lose any weight I might still need to drop with really good results...even while I breast feed!! (which a Dr. never tells you to do...they always caution you to not try to diet while you are pregnant and breast feeding but my Dr. is a woman who specializes in traditional and holistic medicine...shes cool!!)
anyway...best of luck to you on all of it!!

[Jesse Cowell]

Sounds like you have your shoulders on straight. Take it slow and easy going forward and you will get where you want to be. Consistency is key. Super happy to read your thoughts :)